Wednesday, August 17, 2005
well my chest pain cum and go..it hit me yesterday evening at delifrance.
i din slip fer 2 days already.. seriously i cant slip.mayb yes.i do slip.but its jus bout 1 hr + after tat i will b awake.
yesterday nite my parents send me to the clinic..
it jus got worst.oh nono...im seriously s0 scared..
its nearer to september..then october...nonono..i cant b sick!
i cried yesterday nite..my tears keep on flowing rite after i came back from the clinic..sighz
its jus a horrible feelink..it was like bout 2 am in the morning wen i kalled everione..but finnali get thru erin...but then it wasnt her..it was yan..heard his sleepy voice...saying helo0..at tat point of tyme wen i heard his voice..i cried..i mean..all tis while..hez also been the one who i shared my thoughts, my feelinks and everitink...but.
it was all in the past.
he heard me cryink...he kept on saying..."y..wat happen..wanna share wif me?"
but i din even say a word.then after tat i ended the kal.i dunch know how long i been cryink wifout saying a word.sighz.
he din kal me back wen i ended the kal..mayb bcoz he haf got nuthin to do wif me animore.so yeah..i slip wif my tears rolling...
today?
nahz..i dunch wanna talk about wat happen today..however im glad that i managed to close my ears to negative thoughts and im still breathing even how hard i haf to.