Thursday, September 22, 2005
to knoe wads going on wif me..i haf got no answer fer that.
to knoe that im still alive and still breathing. yes.i still do.
to knoe that im ok yesterday.no im not.
to knoe wads wrong wif me at mrt station yesterday. i dunch kneo.
to knoe that i feel ashamed.yes.i do.but wad can i do at tat tyme.
to knoe if im still happy.yes.i am happy coz thrz still people who care.
to knoe that it gonna be worst? yes.i supposed.
to kneo that im still having eyes of faith..mayb i guess.
to kneo that im still blaming on myself.only god knows.
but i jus dunneo anitink.it happens and it goes..no werds to describe.
no werds to define.
sorry mummy...fer not listenink to ya yesterday.i felt so bad..
she care fer me...yes.she reali care fer me.and bcoz of tat.i was paralyzed fer a day.lost in my tears and pain fer whole nite.
i din talk.coz i dunneo wad i shld say.i didnt eat bcoz my appetite was gone.
all i onli care was wad gonna happen next.
im lost.unwanted and loveless.