Saturday, October 29, 2005
well today post was basically about all my ex.bcoz i nid to clarify things.
i have got like onli a few ex.but the real one tat love was involve was only 2.
others is jus playing around.i dunch tell poeple much about all my ex becos everything ws all in the past.y shud i show off about guys? do i gain anitink?
i dun even keep a single things which make me remember them.coz i know tat if i still show people ard all and all,forever i wun move on wif my life.well like one of frens once said,if he is yours,he will be yours forever.
ferst was muhammad al feeyan.he does exist.we knew each fer like years.some of my friends like huda had once saw him..then..liza..and let me see..i tink syahirah.
we seldom met each other eversince we break off officially when my sister got married in 2003? yupsy.he is staying at pasir ris.my parents knew his parents because his grandparents were staying oppsite my blk at jurong east where i grew up.and his grandparents last tyme in ol' days stayed near my grandparents's hse which was at the police squatters.so yupss.hez the longest ex among all.and hez the most heart-breaking one.i have never felt in love that bad wif someone till i cant even forget him.i remembered the ferst tyme we met fer the ferst date.bcos of being so scared,i ask my fren huda to accompany meet him.it was at the tampiness mall.yupps our ferst date.hez very unique in nature.he got his own mind about everything.we just simply shared lots of things in common.i still remembered the day when we make the decision to break off.almost all the things that he gave me i threw it away.i know it was a waste.but when we were so angry, you will never realise what you are doing.
we broke off bcoz he has got low self-esteem.and bcoz of a gerl call amira.soon after we broke off in 2003 we dunch meet each other unless its conincidence.too much of sweet and bad memories.well now we r just frens.no feeling involve.it was just all in the past.
second was faisal.i knew him in july 2003.i dunneo y im attracted to him.yes.i admit that my fren said he is not good looking.it is fact.yupps.this is reality.but it just tat we got chemistry.we get along very well.he gave me encouragement and all wifout fail.i knew him thru his cousin anakmelayu acc.and i dunneo y i gave my no.at ferst i thought jus wanna be frens.but in the end we becum an item. it was a short relationship but the bond between us was very strong.i ferst met him at jurong east mrt station.and as fer him, i asked my fren tina to accompany me too.since he wanna meet her guy, so she accompany me meet faisal.faisal is staying at hougang.
sum people say that im very chosy.yes.i am very chosy.because i dun wanna fall in love wif the wrong person.i hate being heart-broken.well everyone i suppose.i dun go fer trial and error like sum gerls becos i believe in fate.yeah! so yupps.i broke up wif faisal bcos my patience was up to the limit. he took my patience fer granted and so, im the one who ask fer break-up.we never patch again till now.He make me gain my hope back.and he took the wrong turn and throw away the patience and trust i have given him.still i misses him.Now we r just more to frens.we still incontact wif each other.
both feeyan and faisal.we rarely talk unless its in the yahoo messenger or msn. but well we knoe wat happen in each other's life.not just both of them.but also all my other ex.well everything that happen have got hundred and one reasons behind everything.and we shud put the past behind and its not wrong to be frens rite.?
yeah.they were not just the only two.others wasnt that serious.it was just to fullfil the vacancy and just to feel how is it being in relationship.those like irman,sheikh,hisyam...whu else huh? hmm...well sum mayb lost contact wif.but all of dem have once i shared my happines.i dun talk to ghost. they are reality,and they once appear in my life.they are human created by allah.not me.
oh yes.i dunch know whus "m" who tag at my board yesterday.but anw tanks.yes, i have got no prob animore wif her.she told me to back off, so i did.not once i interfer in her life now.so why shud you make things worst.if you got guts, tell me off ur name.y shud you create trouble at my tagboard.i mean after all its my blog.and i thought its only fer people who wanna be nice to make frens and all.i dunch understand at all.serious.
and to farid.i also dunch know who you are.but tanks too fer clarifying things wif me just like my coousin who ask me who feeyan and faisal..i dunch create names just to fake ard.its reality.and u can see the person alive.i mean u must be sumone who knows me.or else you wun be asking me this question.so do you have to create names too0?i dunch knoe if you got a connection wif "m" but cum on.im not immature gerl who know nuthin.now im true to myself.wad about ya? be true to yourself aye.
actuali eversince those james bond and all tag at my board i banned dem from tagging at my blog.after awhile i remove it.bcoz i thought everythin was settle and i have got no hatred towards anione.but im sorry if i banned anyone of ya at my blog who just wanna ruin my happiness wif your werds.bcoz i had enuf of peeps who just simpli wanna find fault wif me..pls.i dunch just pointed to anione whoz doing all this.you know urself who you are.dunch make me trace down your ip address right till doorstep.dunch tink im new in using internet.pls lahh..this is the month of ramadan.y shud you just create trouble.do i owe you anitink? if yes.tell me straight then.
ok people.i got to go.mayb i will blog lesser starting frem today bcoz the o'levels are round the corner.i cant afford to fail animore.hari raya is also round the corner.fer this i blog bcoz people ask me to clarify things.take care peeps! if therez anithing impt, find me at msn at night or msg me.i will try update regularly or in other werds, daily.
say0nara~!