Monday, February 27, 2006
I thought i could ran away from the truth.I thought i could not face up the reality.But now i realise that it's time to realise that all this is just a test.No matter how hard i tried to hide myself away.i just can't.This is me.I never changed to be someone else.I did changed.But change for a better one.
All the things that happened brings a moral story behind it.
I dont know when everything will get better.I dont know when you will changed and realise that you can make a difference just by talk things out.Let of everything that been a secret which you locked it up in your heart. I wont freak out.I will happy to hear everything.
Sometime,I felt like as if we are in primary school days.Those like "i dont want to friend you anymore" and stuff.Get away from some people or something by ignorance.Seriously.i just cant tolerate it anymore.We tend to hate each other.But trust me.I never meant whatever i said. You are still my bestfriend.
I know im such i failure.I can't talk thing with you nicely as an adult and i can't make things right.It all because im just HUMAN. I don't want you to got the wrong message and took my words just for granted.We been together fighting through all those hurdle.Fighting through whenever others were eager to break us apart.6 years is enough for you to judge what kind of person i am.If i can be patience with you all this while.Why not this time round? Right?We always fought.It even stretch for long.Still we are friends. But i just got sicked and tired of everything.I dont want to be the one always making things right when you never even bother to think of my feelings. In the end all those harsh words are mine.You always make me feel like i never exist in your life and i meant nothing to you.Im just a friend whom you need when you really need someone.*Correct me if im wrong.It's ok if you take me for granted.Because im in no value to you.Im an abnormal person.Or to be precise,im a sicked person.I deserve it.Just what you said.
Why this always happen? Have you ever think about it? Why is it so hard to say SORRY and talk things out?
I know if you read this, you will be freak out.And you think im such a pain.But i cant do anything to make you realise everything.Cant even type out everything in this blog.Because some thins are meant for both of us.No one else.Come on.Seat down and made some soul searching.We aint perfect.Im not perfect.I made whole lots of mistake.If you were able to pointed out my mistake.I will be so happy.Sometimes we need to hear what's in each other mind.never made conclusion without prove.This is healthy then just keeping everything by yourself. You ought to realise that some people out there were laughing at us.Laughing at our foolishness , childish behaviour and us getting far apart.
Im still the same old me.You know me well.You made the wise decision.If you can put away your pride and selfishness for once.I will be so glad.
Jalilah``
*anw people i thought of changing my blog url and make it personal..but well.maybe not for now. sorry.this entry is just meant to be for someone.ignore this entry if you are not the one.