i can just feel myself being lost in a situation which i still cant find the courage to tell.yes i cried. but argh.my fault.i create the disappointment. im sorry.but who knows that i did that for a reason which no one could ever realised just how hard it was.
oh well.to dissimulate my guilty thoughts and feelings,i made this entry for the sake of typing it since i cant sleep.you may think im alright.but the actual fact its actually not.its 3am now anw.
who loves to slack at home? raise up ur hands..weee..ok.even if u raise up ur hands or not, i cant see it.haha.anyway,rottin myself up in my "wonderful" room isnt tat bad u know.i mean of cause people will get bored and everything.but hey..i love it! (at times). ;)
i have been wanting to revamp my room as u can see at my wish list..u know, rearrange the things at my room.cleared up all the mess which i've left untouch since Hari Raya Haji.well except for the bedsheet that i changed everytime and some unnecessary rubbish i threw away. There's no reasons why i wants to revamp my room so much.Its's just that i want something different.something to capture my eyes and something which there's no words to define.ok im talking nuts here.But how can i get started when im such a lazy bum?
this is what im talking about being lazy. everything is disorganise.
see all those books on the table? its recipe books.mostly asmah laili's recipe books.i was fliping through it since in the afternoon.thought of doing some cooking and gettin prepare to cook something for my mom's birthday which is next month. however, i've not decide on which dish to cook for her.hmm
im like spending most of my time infront of my com.like almost 24/7. at times, it even stretch to 4..5..6 am.doing what? haha..nuthing.it either i chat,listen to songs,search for the lyric of the songs,watch video or the least thing i will do is blogging.actually i do blog everyday but sometimes after typing i ended up saving it as draft and i dunneo why.
i have not vacuum my room for quite sumtime.now.i can see the dust.arghh.. really need to clean up my room asap.wanna know what's on the screen which always appear?
my iTunes.it has always brighten me up with songs.with my countless number of songs.from malay,english,chinese,indian,arab,latin plus2 which i cant keep track and lots of genre in it.
i have got some bears left on my display which was given by my frens.and im sure that the bears will soon be out from my display by this november.wosh! .arghh. cant wait for the precious little cutie baby to be born..weee..
but one thing i will leave untouch and i still sleep with this bear at this 18 coming 19 years old is this one.
ok.im like deprived my childhood.hehe. hey!but serious.i love this bear. it has a sentimental value u know.given by a fren.a best fren i shud say.on my birthday. errmm..dunneo which year :) such a soft teddy bear.i name it mr ted.hehe.
okies.im like a toad here typing this entry and i was being force by a fren to accompany her.listens to her babbling about her gerl.she's none other than this hantu gila.always called me belon.ishks. its a SHE.hehe. she been also pestering me to make some simple editing of her pics.and guess what.the only thing i did was crop her pic since she wants her pic alone although the pic below she took with a girl which i cant deny that she's pretty..looks like 'perempuan melayu terakhir'.ho ho!
makcik!!!rambut tak hansem lah.hehe..
i wish there's someone out there who's not yet sleeping beside this gila.i need a good cry. tsk.tsk. to hana, get well soon dear. im worried about you. to agnes and miao zhi,i hope to see you gerls next week.
and to everyone.this is the end of the entry.too long for a "nothing to blog" entry.
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