Tuesday, March 14, 2006
its 438am and im still awake.i know if i say i just bathe.people will think that im crazy.but serious.its true.my fever just dun wanna go away.it get better for a day.and go back again the next day.im going doctor soon. for two reasons.fever and insomnia. this is bad. now who would be nice to accompany me at this hour? hmm..
something wakes me up and make me think.
There is a hadiths that says that "the weakest of Iman is to keep quiet and move away when we see something is wrong."
maybe its true.but whats the use of saying a word and making things right when it will eventually hurt others and make things worst? i dun get it.and im confused.
an hour ago i was lost in the ocean of emotions. i was thinking about myself.everyday i pray for the better.i pray that god wun take way my happiness. its hard on me to keep on gettin a bite from a needle .to swallow things that i hate so much.and the reasons that im still smiling and standing here being strong is because i hate sympathy.
anyway,i shall miss my good bf wanny.hez going ns this morning.hurhur..wanny u better take care of urself. and tanks for the short msg u leave for me.you touches my heart lahh.you know its been great sharing stuff wif you.i shall miss our nite talks.yes yes.we will have a meal once you cum back ok. take care.muackss.
for now, i will go listen to sleepy songs that can makes me off to my lala land.
* Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all.