mugging for exams are over. yeyness. i felt so relieve.
its 238am now and im still awake. i dont know what im thinking right now. im clueless too. and i just simply don't know where to start. i guess this are one of my sucky nites.
maybe the thoughts of thinking about what happened last year on these same dates makes me feel stupid of myself. all those faking looking me when actually everytime im at home, i was that emo depressed girl seating at one corner of my room and did nothing but crying in the dark. oh. how naive i am. and the thought of giving up my life just makes me more stupid. i totally forgot that i have got my parents who never lose hope on me till today.
and yes here i am getting better each day. getting stronger. ouh im happy now. no more faking to be happy. no more. but i will never forget those sucky days. :( argh. im crying. see..im still tat emo ok. wahaha..
anyway, im done with baking the cookies. now left with the spring cleaning. i've started to clean my messy room. especially the course book and all. so yah.. i shall do the rest next week. whole lots of chores. great.
i was suppose to go to the graduation ceremony together with the hi-tea at Ritz Carlton tmr today with the rest and report for the briefing at 10am. but after thinking through, since we already received our cert in advance. we changed our mind. furthermore im fasting and i dont see the point of going there lookin at people eating. and i changed my plan. will be going to geylang instead. :)
argh. and this monday. opssy. as in tmr. dipT2 will start. no break. no holiday. no nothing. and the time table of dipT2 sucks ok. everday ends at 5. *drop. the thought of it already makes me feel so tired and stress. how cool can that be?
i think i better hit the bed now. need some sleep badly. my swollen lymph nodes is aching.
*5 more days to ayah's 52th birthday and 8 days to Hari raya. *wink*
to hana: throw away those trouble thoughts of urs dear and be happy. im always here when u need someone to turn to.hugs.
*//i laugh when i cry; i smile when im sad.